Numb

Okay, so here’s one I may write some music to. I’m still a little on the fence about it. It’s super emotional and blah blah blah. I know, as a writer I need to get away from ballads. But this one has to be written (Just like the last song had to be ruined). The only difference is, this one began as a personal song. A little over a year ago, I came up with the first two lines because, I was sitting in the shower, just trying to grasp what was going on. An almost perfect relationship had begun crumbling, and I had no idea what to do about it. I have experience with bad relationships crumbling, but I guess I just thought this one was different. Well, after a few breakups we worked things out so, although the line was still in the back of my mind, I didn’t know what else to write along with it.

Unfortunately (cue the chorus of “I told you so”s), before it ended for the final time, I found myself in the same situation. Sitting in a shower, with my knees to my chest, just at the end of my rope. Emotionally and mentally exhausted, I finished the first verse that morning, but, being the “glass half full, things will get better” kinda gal that I am, I refused to pursue the song further.

Well, it’s time to sign off on that chapter of my life. I can’t think of a better way to do it than to finish this lyric. I swear, this will be the last personal one for a while. It’s just something that I have to do.

Numb

© 2014 Chelsey Sears

Raindrops fall from the showerhead

I sit with my knees to my chest

Is it even worth the fight?

I’ve given you my best

But feel the distance

Grows, the harder that I try

Made a hundred promises, I swore I’d keep

But I never thought I’d be counting tears, while you count sheep

Baby do you hear me calling

Have you noticed that I’m falling

That my heart just doesn’t race

Like it did in the good ole days

That twinkle in our eyes

Used to dance like fireflies

No I never thought that our kind of love

Could ever feel this numb

Late at night, when you turn away

I just feel like my soul’s been laid

To unrest, ‘neath a willow tree

I feel no pulse in my veins

But honey, you know you could change

All of that, if you’d just reach for me

Baby do you hear me calling

Have you noticed that I’m falling

That my heart just doesn’t race

Like it did in the good ole days

That twinkle in our eyes

Used to dance like fireflies

No I never thought that our kind of love

Could ever feel this numb

Hanging to a ledge, I’m on the verge of letting go

If that’s what you really want, baby just say so

Because I can’t do this alone

Baby do you hear me calling

Have you noticed that I’m falling

That my heart just doesn’t race

Like it did in the good ole days

That twinkle in our eyes

Used to dance like fireflies

No I never thought that our kind of love

Could ever feel this numb